Showing posts with label college. Show all posts
Showing posts with label college. Show all posts

Friday, January 16, 2009

A new look

A new year has begun, and with it comes a new look and a new title for my blog. Instead of reading my "Random Thoughts," I now welcome you to "The World As I Know It." I hope that you and the few readers I may have, enjoy the new appearance, the new links, and hopefully much more writing than ever before; so, grab a cup of coffee, kick back, and enjoy life with me.

Yes, yes... I know I'm a little late for the new year, but it's been a long break full of activity... and lots of sleep! That is going to come to a screeching halt next week as I begin my second semester at Southeast Missouri State University. I hope I can get more people to join me for the ride -- maybe more readers, if anyone's actually interested.

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

Bit of an update!

It's a cold, gray, dreary day, and I'm enjoying it!  My next class isn't until 3:00, so I just thought I'd post an update since my last post was so depressing!

Quite a few things have changed since last I wrote -- for the better.  After that week of misery when I posted last time, I decided things had to change.  I can't spend 8 hours a day in a room with no windows (besides the Operating System - HA!), writing code for a living.  I would simply go insane.  I also came to the conclusion that a lot of Computer Science and IT people can communicate with a machine more fluently than with another human.  I've decided that I value communication too much to continue in that direction.  I'm just not quite the geek I thought I was. :)

Obviously after deciding that, the next question became, "What am I going to do?!"  I decided to take some online personality tests and career placement tests.  They showed that I'm fairly well split between Mathematical/Scientific thinking and Artistic thinking.  Surprise me!

It dawned on me recently that Computer Science is almost entirely mathematical and scientific, in both design and implementation.  However, as a musician, writer, and lover of improvisation, I have this strong desire -- no, need -- for artistic design.  I need for my designs to be artistic in nature.  I can handle math and science, and I don't mind applying them during implementation... But I have a deep appreciation for art, and I value it highly.  It is obvious to me that my artistic outlets are music and writing, and Comp Sci does not give me any room to express that artistic side of my personality.

So, with the aforementioned test results in hand, I went to meet with Donna Tucker, my transfer advisor who helped me decide to come to SEMO in the first place  (Interestingly, her son is Sam, the manager of Hastings in Poplar Bluff).  She had been, and still is, the nicest and most helpful person I'd dealt with here.  I found out that, at age 20, she to had lost her sense of direction and actually dropped out of college; but after taking some tests like the ones I'd taken, she went on to get a degree in Public Relations.  At last, someone who can communicate!

The career tests actually ranked my number one career as "Physician," but I hate biology and don't deal well with sick people -- especially kids.  Too depressing.  I have a real problem with mortality... Why do you think I like horror and vampires so much? haha...  Dad always likes to tell everyone about the time I watched Our Town and cried for an hour because of all the death in that story.

Further down the list of careers, it mentioned pursuing a degree in Mass Communication; that caught my attention.  I started looking into the Mass Communication program and found out that SEMO is one of only two colleges in Missouri with an accredited Mass Communication program, the other one being Mizzou.  There are five "Options" within the program: Public Relations, Video Production, Journalism, Advertising, and..... Radio!  Ding, ding, ding -- I'm interested!  I've toured radio stations, and I love them!

I made all the necessary appointments, and I've talked to Dr. Tammy Baldwin and Dr. Bruce Mims.  Dr. Baldwin is the interim chair of the Mass Communication program, and Dr. Mims is the head of the Radio Option and the college radio station, Rage 103.7.  Unfortunately, the Radio Option classes all start in the fall, but I can get a jump start on the MC classes in the spring.  The major also requires a minor.  Fortunately, I'm only 3 credits away from a Math minor already, so I'm knocking that out of the way next semester as well - ironically enough, with a Computer Programming course.  I also plan to minor in Business Administration; although it's a 30 hour minor (that's big!), it will actually help, since I want to get my Masters in Business Administration (MBA) anyway!

So, I will be working at the college radio station, Rage 103.7, next fall, or perhaps even sooner if Dr. Mims can figure out a way to plug me into that.  I'm anxiously looking forward to learn how to use all the software there at the station.  They gave me a tour of Rage, and all of their equipment is top of the line, like what you'd see in professional studios.

I don't know that I want to be an actual radio personality, although it could be fun.  I think it would be amazing to become the Music Director, who actually picks the songs the station will play!  What an artistic outlet!  It involves technology, and I'd hear a lot of music that way.  I'll be taking an Audio Production class, and next semester I'm taking Writing for the Mass Media.  Sounds fun!

What I would ultimately like to do, after I get my MBA, is open and run my own music studio.  It's a long shot, but I'm so passionate about music.

Last night, I was hanging out at the Baptist Student Center.  Initially, it was just a study/coffee party with Alyssa, but more people showed up.  The homework went in the backpack, and we went in the Chapel! :)  Aaron hopped on the piano, Joshua on his new 12 string Takamine, Aaron and Alyssa grabbed mics, and I went to the sound board to mix.  Fun!!!  Got everything sounding great, then hopped on the drums that are set up in the BSC.  The drums don't sound too bad, but the cymbals are crap.  Anyway, we sat around and played music for hours.  We learned East to West by Casting Crowns, and had it sounding great by the time we quit for the evening.  We're going to perform it soon.  Everyone was excited, because we'd never all played together.  We also worked on an original arrangement Aaron had put together and played for Chapel in the past... but it sounded so much better with the full band sound.

After that, Aaron, Steven, Joshua, and I went to Huddle House to hang out and work on homework.  This was around midnight. :)  I got a waffle!  haha!  Yummy!

Steven, Joshua, and I came back and watched a couple episodes of The Simpsons, and I didn't get back to the dorm until well after 1:00.  It was so nice to hang out with friends and just have fun!

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Overwhelmed

Today has been the ultimate day from hell.  Sadly, this will be my first blog post since starting my semester at SEMO, and it's a shame because now people will get the worst possible impression of how things are going for me.  Oh well -- like I said, day from hell.

Let me preface this by saying that yesterday was going really well, until last night.  I went to the Baptist Student Center at 9:00 PM for a Hitchcock movie night (love this holiday season!!!)   I started not feeling well about a half hour into the movie and was feeling extremely tired and fatigued (still am).  So, I came back to the dorm before 10 to go to bed.  Unfortunately, someone with more authority than I has found it fit to change our heating/cooling system for the season; although I have my thermostat turned all the way down, on 55°F, I can't get the temperature below 73°F -- that's with the windows open to let in the near freezing outdoor air and with a high velocity fan blowing in the room.  I don't sleep well when I'm too warm (I have trouble breathing when it's too warm), and 73° is absolutely stuffy in this room at night.  So, I didn't sleep well last night.

When I woke up this morning, my hip was sore for no apparent reason whatsoever -- a gift from my dad, courtesy of genetics.  If I don't have to have my knees replaced someday, it will most certainly be my hips instead.

As I was leaving the dorm for a quick breakfast before my first class of the day, I stopped at my truck to grab a notebook I needed.  As I was putting the notebook in my backpack, I dropped my iPhone... my $500 16GB original iPhone...  I watched helplessly as, in slow motion, my iPhone fell to the ground below, landing face-down on the parking lot.  Although it still works, and the touch screen seems virtually unaffected, the top left corner of the screen is shattered, hairline cracks sprawling across the surface like a cracked windshield.  Needless to say,  I was upset.  I called Apple this evening to find out about getting it replaced or repaired.  Of course, "I'm sorry, but accidental damage isn't covered by the warranty" (what is -- intentional  damage?!).  "You have two options.  Since it is an original iPhone, we can repair it for $249... Or, if you are eligible for an upgrade, you can get a 16 GB iPhone 3G for $299.  This would start a new 2 year contract with AT&T."  Guess who's living with a cracked iPhone for a good while.

First class: Linear Algebra.  Not a huge deal, but I have a test in there on Thursday.  Yay... I can't even begin to express my enthusiasm. //sarcasm...  Still need to memorize three or four proofs.  Fun stuff, let me tell you now - made even better by the fact that the guy words his problems entirely differently from the problems in the book, making it virtually impossible to look up examples.

Second class: Computer Science.  Lab today.  No big deal, straight forward.  Work on the programming assignment given in the lab.  Here's where I'm starting to get stressed.  I have to set up an appointment with my advisor on or around November 4.  I've never met my advisor.  Her name is... let me look this up... /*Checking SEMO Portal to find advisor's name*/ ... Ziping Liu.  My "Priority Registration" date is November 18, so I have to talk to my advisor to try to figure out my spring 2009 schedule and get my Alternate PIN so I can register for classes.  Here's where the stress comes into play.  I've realized since starting SEMO that the CS major revolves almost solely around programming.  And while that may be fun and games, I'm not certain that it's what I want as my career.  So much of it seems like busy work that is extremely time consuming and distracts from my other classes -- and while, yes, it may be teaching me logical reasoning and critical thinking skills, I feel like they're skillsets I'll only be using if I want to be a programmer full-time in the future. 

This puts me in a bad situation.  I currently have an A in Computer Science, Religion in America, and Linear Algebra.  I have/had a borderline B in Economics (I'm getting to that topic), and a borderline B in Issues in Modern Architecture. 

Next class: Economics.  This is where I lose all sense of happiness (and yes, unfortunately even joy) in my day.  I love this class, everything makes sense during the lectures, I volunteer correct answers and provide my personal insight into topics.  Very enjoyable class..............  Today, I got my grade back on Exam 2.  69%.  Devastating.  I studied for THREE HOURS for this test.  Anyone who knows me knows that I don't study for three hours for anything.  That dropped my grade to a C.  Fortunately, we have 15 total homework assignments, and she will drop the lowest 5 of them.  With that in mind, if I drop my five lowest homework scores, I have an 80.4% - barely a B.  This is not satisfactory, and is still very dangerous territory; there are only 3 regular exams, a comprehensive final, the homework assignments, a presentation, and a paper.  I'm hoping I can do well enough on everything else to at least keep a B.

Final class of the day: Religion in America.  My only good class of the day; very little to say, other than the fact that I have a paper due on November 5 for which I have not yet chosen a topic.  Could do a "History of the Disciples of Christ" paper, but I'm really uninformed on that topic.  Could do a paper on Billy Graham or something, but that seems so cliché.  Still undecided.  Fortunately, I can pump out a paper in a night if I have to.  I can still proudly say I've never made anything but an A on any paper -- even the ones written in one sitting.

Another thing that's stressing me: the Honors Program.  It makes everything more stressful, in every possible way.  I have to complete eight total honors classes, either by taking classes specifically designated as "honors classes" or by completing "honors contracts."  Because I'm a transfer junior, I have to complete an average of TWO of these EVERY semester.  Which means that when I meet with my advisor who barely speaks Engrish, I have to somehow communicate to her that I want to fit not just one, but two, honors courses into my already CRAZY Computer Science schedule; and God only knows if she'll even be familiar with the way the Honors Program functions -- I've learned that at both colleges: a vast majority of the faculty are not familiar with the policies and regulations of the Honors Program.  Yay.  I'm already struggling academically, and I have to take harder, more time consuming courses.  Then, I have the concern that if I don't stay in the Honors Program that I may not be able to stay in Vandiver.

Plus, I have this constant worry in the back of my mind (closer to the front of my mind recently), that if I don't maintain a 3.5 GPA this year, that my scholarships won't be renewable and I won't be able to afford an education.

And what if I'm not even sure that Computer Science is the right major for me?  Do I really want to program and write codes for a living?  If not, have I wasted a semester of my time and money already?

This is misery.  A part of me is a dreamer who wishes he could get paid to just play the music he loves; I have no doubt in my God-given talent, and that I can play just as well as many professionals.  But it's unrealistic to think that I could make a living doing it, just as it's unrealistic to think there's any money in writing.

Oh yeah, did I mention that I still don't have a job?

I'm sick.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Insomnia...

Yes, insomnia. Or maybe it was that Venti Mocha Frap from Starbucks earlier... In either case, it's a good thing I don't have to go in to work until noon. I have nothing else to do; therefore, I shall blog. My day started very early today (yesterday) -- so early I had to wake up before breakfast. What's this world coming to? 6:00... that's what time Dad told me to get in the shower, apparently. 6:10... that's what time I actually woke up and heard him, allegedly for the second time, say that I needed to get in the shower or I wasn't going to get to go to Cape Girardeau today.

Grandma had doctor's appointments in Cape this morning, and we decided to go along for the ride to stop by the college and to go shopping. So, we dropped grandma off at her appointments and went on to SEMO. I had some paperwork to fill out in the financial aid office, and they gave me the beautiful news that my total expenses for a year of college totalled $14,000. Wowzers, thank God for scholarships, but still... Here, you want an arm too? How 'bout a leg? From financial aid, I went to the Career Linkage office, where I found out about a few on-campus job possibilities. At this point I'm really hoping to get a job in the Kent Library on campus, but I still have to call the nice lady in Career Linkage. I also paid a visit to Student Support Services where I talked to the Director of Tutoring Services (or some other such official sounding title). He was nice and helpful and knew Dr. Lewis, my favorite professor of all time. That lent a great deal of credibility, and I left feeling like I had made a really good impression. I hope to tutor maybe 4-5 hours a week and work part time somewhere else as well (hopefully the library). Speaking of the library, I spent the rest of my time on campus exploring it. The Kent Library's selection of periodicals, journals, non-fiction, and literature is outstanding; however, their fiction section is extremely limited (as in they have a few shelves stocked with current bestsellers), so I'm planning on relying on the Cape Girardeau Public Library, Poplar Bluff Public Library, and MOBIUS for my reading pleasure. The nicest part of the Kent Library -- besides the quiet study areas, of course -- is the Kent Cafe which serves coffee, espresso, macchiatos, cappuccinos, lattes, mochas, hot chocolate, Tazo hot tea, and cookies. Yes indeed, I can get a cup of coffee any time I like for a mere $1.05. Beats Starbucks prices!



By the time I had thoroughly investigated all four floors of the library, it was lunch time. After that, my favorite part of the day arrived: shopping time! I got so many things I can't remember them all:

  • Clear iPhone case

Clothes


  • Two different black, patterned long sleeve casual/dress shirts
  • Navy blue Converse zip-up hoody

Music

Here's where I really hit the jackpot... mostly old Christian music:

  • The Dingees - Sundown to Midnight
  • Five Iron Frenzy - Our Newest Album Ever!
  • Mortifcation - Triumph of Mercy
  • MxPx - The Ever Passing Moment
  • MxPx - Life in General
  • Relient K - The Bird and the Bee Sides/The Nashville Tennis EP

So there you have it... everything of slight interest that happened during my day.