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Well, the practice went well... I really wish Blythe had been there!!!! I miss her SO much, and I just saw her last night! We played really well tonight - the bassist couldn't make it and probably can't make it tomorrow either. However, he goes to the church where the Youth Service we're playing at is held, so he will probably still play with us. I don't know how that will work. I think we sound better than we ever have.

We got back to PB and had to go to Wal-Mart... that took a while... I am dead tired.

When I got home, I called Blythe... her mom was quizzing her on History, so she had to call me back. Then, I was playing around on the keyboard, and (stupidly) I feel like I pretty much messed with that more than I talked to her and I feel absolutely terrible about it. She didn't seem very upset, but still I'm afraid I worried her by talking too much about the practice and not enough about her and us... I feel awful, and I'm worried she's upset, but I really doubt that she is...

THANK GOD she's going with me tomorrow night. I just feel like I can't go another day without seeing her. I love Blythe so much, and I feel like I didn't pay enough attention to her on the phone tonight. She said that she has to take Algebra 2 with her tomorrow too! :-( :-( She has 6 sets she HAS to turn in by Monday... Her parents should be understanding because of the amount of stress she has on her right now... But her math teacher is just being a butt... This is the same teacher who threatened to stop sending her her homebound work... jerk... I feel like it's a Monday... I really shouldn't... I mean the practice was fun and musically inspiring, but I need to see Blythe and feel her love... And I want her to know that she is the only person who will receive all my love, affection, and care! I'm afraid she worries all the time about everything... :-S

Now, keeping in mind that all my thoughts are always on my angel and she never leaves my mind, I want to digress back to music for just a minute.
I'm currently listening to Kutless... Wonder if there are any songs by them that Jacob could learn or we could look up tabs/lead sheets for? That would rock. We played some pretty heavy stuff tonight after running through our worship set... We did some familiar Praise and Worship stuff, a few of Jacob's own songs (he writes mostly slower, more reserved songs, but they are powerful and well written)... Then after we went through our set list, we jammed... Will (acoustic guitar) has this really, really cool piece of music he wrote... Combines several different things in my mind... When I first heard the acoustic part, my mind went to Kansas... really interesting piece of music... smooth finger-picking - think Dust in the Wind... Then Jacob came in with this awesome lead part on electric and, for some reason, that made me think of Pillar somehow... I backed that up with a pretty technical drum part... Had never played anything like it really, but it was a musical idea I had been tossing around... ended up sounding like an older piece, something out of the 70's, and Will's hair certainly fit in with the music! (He took it out of the pony tail) lol... We faded the lights down when we were playing this piece of music, and I felt like the room needed some lava lamps or something... it just fit the music in my mind... Then Jacob was playing with his effects pedal, and he found this flanger effect that he hadn't really played with... At first I thought of Audio Adrenaline, but what he started playing was way heavier than Audio A. So... this led to some really hard rock... Will picked up bass, and I found myself playing louder, more rhythmically, more skillfully than I think I've ever played... It was probably some of the heaviest, most fun music I've jammed with ever... I've always wanted to play hard rock but did not know if I'd be capable... well, I hope to play around with that again tomorrow... The melody reminded me of the intro to Gavin DeGraw's "I Don't Wanna Be", but it was much, much harder (as I will never think of "I Don't Wanna Be" as a particularly rock song)... also of interest, Jacob was playing Switchfoot's "Meant to Live"... I wonder if we could actually perform that?? :-D

Then, at Wal-Mart I found out that Ian C. wants to come over sometime and play music... apparently he plays electric guitar (I kinda knew this cause I heard him playing Crazy Train by Ozzie on one of the cheapie guitars at Wal-Mart), and he just got a new amp... so he may be coming over sometime...

Blythe, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART!!!!